I feel as if I have been on a hiatus for quite a while now. Each day is a new day and they are getting longer. This hiatus comes with little money and not much fun, so I wouldn’t recommend it. I’ve interviewed a number of times for jobs over the past couple of months, but I have been unsuccessful in finding anything that fits me and them. Constant interviews take a huge toll on me. I feel beat up at times after some of these interviews. Sometimes these things just take time.
I am now looking at jobs in places where I would have to relocate, other states and countries, and I have mixed feelings about relocating. Relocating a couple of years ago didn’t work out so well for me, so I’m scared to try it again. Yet, nothing local seems to be panning out. I have the option of being self-employed, but that is a lot of work and is new territory for me.
I don’t always do this, but I read my tarot cards last night. I’d rather have someone else read my tarot for me, but sometimes we have to do what we have to do. The outcome of the reading, after two different types of readings, does not look good for me, which means I need to change some things right now in the course of my life to avoid having a “not so good” outcome. I don’t know how much I believe in quantum physics as it applies to the tarot and/or other measuring tools like astrology, but I’ve found these tools to be fairly accurate at times, much to my surprise. Just so you know, I turn to tarot when I feel lost. It’s sort of a last resort for me.
On another note, I began writing some science fiction, so we’ll see how that goes and if it winds up on the blog. The elephant in the room right now is having THIS blog. It’s probably not advised and there are times that I am thinking of disappearing this part of my life. I don’t think a connection can be made to the actual me, but who knows for sure? These days employers check the internet and the tags on your underwear before hiring you. I’m uncertain what to think about all of that. .
I am baring my soul to you right now. I got screwed on my last job, and this doesn’t help the reference section on my current resume’. I don’t know what I’m going to do if things don’t come together for me soon. I’m getting a bit used to not working, and that’s not good, but eventually unemployment money runs out, and then what? I need to think positive and do things that will bring me up. I’m trying, but it’s not easy.
Then there is this little factor going on that I have not been on some needed medications for a while now. This is due to a disruption in my insurance. It’s not helping me do well at interviews or anywhere else to be without this needed medication. I have health insurance now, thanks to Obama, but it’s just now coming into effect and the pharmacy is out of what I need. Today was quite a cluster fuck for me. I damaged my truck which pissed me the fuck off. It’s the side panel and I hit into a metal post and scraped it. Jeezus…. Then the pharmacy doesn’t have my pills, and I’m unsure what to do about that. I guess try more pharmacies. I need those pills.
Well that’s all for now. Take it easy. Any opinions or views on any of this would be appreciated. There seems to be something wrong with my comments, so I’ll see if I can look into that right away. We’ll see I guess.