The Jacksons 45

The Jacksons 45

Bye, Bye, Miss American Pie

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I will remember you

OK.  OK.  I have been gone for so long that I have forgotten how to update my site.  Wow!  I think the domain is about to expire as well and I thought about letting it go to the place where things long gone disappear to.  But I can’t do that.  I’m going to go back to writing.  I’m ready to finish The Jacksons now. It’s already basically written, and it just needs some elbow grease.  If I can just recall how to post the damn stories, we’ll be good to go. LOL

I logged into Fetlife again as well.  I haven’t been there in ages.  I had so many messages.  I was able to respond to a few of them.  I wish I had time to respond to all of them.

OK, gotta go figure this shit out…


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I seem to have dropped off the face of the earth.  Ooops, no, I’m still here.  I have a newer job that seems to be a great fit.  I haven’t said anything about it until now because I wanted to see how things went.  So far so good.  It’s a lot different than work I have done in the past.  This is a good thing.  I truly don’t mean to neglect this blog or my writing, but honestly when I am not at work I have company at my house about 80 percent of the time.  It has been ages since I have awakened on a Saturday morning to have no one else around.  As you can imagine, I only like to write when I am alone due to the type of writing I do and the process I go through to accomplish that writing.  I need it to be quiet around me so that I can focus on feeling what I am writing.  If that makes sense. Anyway, I am glad I had a few minutes to write a short update.  I have somewhere to go today, and I need to get moving.  Peace out.  I hope I can publish more chapters soon.

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It’s been a while since I have written on this blog.  I renewed the site a couple of months ago, so if you noticed it disappeared suddenly for a day or two, that is why.  Another renewal payment is due again soon.  I’m kind of wondering what to do about it.  I have not been using this blog much, and why pay so much for something I use so little?

I haven’t written on the blog for a number of reasons.  One of the major reasons is that I have not been using my laptop very often, hardly ever.  I use my iPad to browse and look around the web when I want to be online, and most of my time is spent watching a lot of television and Netflix.  The problem with posting an entry to the blog from my iPad is that it takes forever to type anything on the iPad and editing on the iPad is a big pain in the arse.

I am happy right now, and finally working a job that I enjoy and which helps me get by financially.  I have two grandchildren now.  My daughter just had another baby.  First came my granddaughter and now I have a grandson.  Geez I’m old.  I have some sort of lump growing on my wrist, so I don’t like typing much.  I need to go see my doctor at the beginning of the new year.

I’m losing my interest in spanking and BDSM.  Is it possible that it was a phase?  Maybe so.  That is why the stories have slowed down so much.  I still have an interest in writing, but with fewer spanking scenes and I’m not sure how well received that would be on a blog that started out being about my life as a spanko.

Well, that’s all for now.  Oh yeah, I just bought a new vehicle, a Toyota 4 Runner. I love it!!


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The Jacksons 44

The Jacksons Chapter 44

My Pleasure

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Enter Hank Moody

I just finished watching the last season of Californication.  I LOVED that show.  I like that Hank Moody is a writer and that he can’t ever get his shit together.  I totally get that.  Every weekend my house looks like party central.  I can’t help it.  I just want to drink and have fun and it seems others are game to join me.  Yet, I need to get back to my roots and back to writing.  I feel it inside of me deeply.  Hopefully, I will get back to it sooner than later.  I love Netflix.


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I can’t turn to you when it all falls apart

Wrote this a while ago and never posted it.  I am in a better place now, thank goodness.  

Thought of Russ all day on April 1.  Thought of Mark all day on March 7.  Thought of Cheryl all day on March 8. Those where their birthdays, let’s not even get into their death dates.  Are they happier?  I seriously need to get out of this funk.

I was devastated by Robin Williams suicide recently and now the death of Joan Rivers.  Sometimes I wonder what might be waiting on the other side.  I can’t help it.  Is it better or worse?


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Thank You

Someone wrote me a very nice email a week or two ago and I meant to write them back an equally eloquent response, but unfortunately I didn’t get that done.  So, I thought I would mention in on here.  It was complimentary about my writing and it made my day to read it.  Lately, I have had a rush of people registering on the blog as well, and I appreciate that the interest that is still there despite my severe neglect.  As a hostess of a blog, I’ve been noticeably absent for quite some time.

I have had yearly struggles.  It all started in 2011 when I made a decision that led me into one horrible experience after another.  It was like a domino effect and a gift that just keeps on giving.  I am still recovering from that idiotic decision and things seem to be getting worse rather than better, but I keep on hanging in there. I’ve got a job right now with a fairly high hourly wage but with no real benefits attached to it and quite a bit of paperwork that I have to do on the side that I am not directly paid for.  For now, this job works well for me.  It is flexible, and I need that.

I have to thank my dad for being there for me this past 6 months.  He’s been an outstanding help to me.  My children have been there for me as well.  Like I said, it’s been an interesting journey.

Some of you wonder if I will ever get back to writing my fiction.  The truth is that I am stuck on a chapter of The Jackson’s.  I know what I need to write, but I don’t want to write it.  I know where the story is going and what the ending will be, but I hate the way it sounds when I write it.  It all reads fake to me and the words are not coming easy.  Every now and then I get it out and tinker some more with it.  That’s what the big holdup is with my writing at the moment.  Hopefully I will post that chapter soon and move on.

My eyes are closing now, it’s bedtime.  Goodnight.

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That 70’s Show

My son got me interested in watching “That 70’s Show” not long ago.  I streamed almost the entire series on Netflix.  I loved it!  All of the 70’s props took me back.  The attitudes, dialogue, and jokes took me back.  Why is it that those days seem like “the good old days?”  I know I was a moody teenager back then and my life wasn’t rosy, but it sure seems like it was when I look back on those days.  I guess we always feel that way when we look back at decades past.  We dwell on the good times I guess and we tend to forget the bad stuff.

After watching the last episode of “That 70’s Show” I am listening to 70’s music and I can’t believe we listened to some of this shit and LIKED it.  I’ve been feeling old lately.  I found a job and I’m starting to get back to work after a few months of rest and relaxation.  It’s good for me to work. Bleh.  This job comes with a flexible schedule and that’s what I need.  I need lots of freedom.  Holy Fuck…War just came on the music of the 70’s station and they are singing “Why Can’t We Be Friends.”  LOL  Shit.

Next month is my birthday.  It’s a landmark birthday for me.  I don’t even want to think about my age.  I’m a grandma, a fuckin’ grandma.  Can you believe it?  I can’t.  My granddaughter is so cute that I love that little girl with all my heart.  She’s smart as a whip and I can’t wait until all of her talking makes sense.  She’s gonna be a talker just like her mother.

I usually have lots of company these days.  Most nights I have people here playing Nintendo with me and each other.  I’m even in touch with people I knew from several years ago through my kids.  You’d think I was a youngster or something. LOL  Well, I like to think I’m fun sometimes and not always just an ornery old wench.

Well after listening to “Love Train” and now “Sometimes When We Touch” maybe I’ll pour a glass of water and relax.  It’s just about time for bed.



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And the beat goes on…

I feel as if I have been on a hiatus for quite a while now.  Each day is a new day and they are getting longer. This hiatus comes with little money and not much fun, so I wouldn’t recommend it.  I’ve interviewed a number of times for jobs over the past couple of months, but I have been unsuccessful in finding anything that fits me and them.  Constant interviews take a huge toll on me.  I feel beat up at times after some of these interviews.  Sometimes these things just take time.

I am now looking at jobs in places where I would have to relocate, other states and countries, and I have mixed feelings about relocating.  Relocating a couple of years ago didn’t work out so well for me, so I’m scared to try it again.  Yet, nothing local seems to be panning out.  I have the option of being self-employed, but that is a lot of work and is new territory for me.

I don’t always do this, but I read my tarot cards last night.  I’d rather have someone else read my tarot for me, but sometimes we have to do what we have to do.  The outcome of the reading, after two different types of readings, does not look good for me, which means I need to change some things right now in the course of my life to avoid having a “not so good” outcome.  I don’t know how much I believe in quantum physics as it applies to the tarot and/or other measuring tools like astrology, but I’ve found these tools to be fairly accurate at times, much to my surprise.  Just so you know, I turn to tarot when I feel lost.  It’s sort of a last resort for me.

On another note, I began writing some science fiction, so we’ll see how that goes and if it winds up on the blog. The elephant in the room right now is having THIS blog.  It’s probably not advised and there are times that I am thinking of disappearing this part of my life.  I don’t think a connection can be made to the actual me, but who knows for sure?  These days employers check the internet and the tags on your underwear before hiring you.  I’m uncertain what to think about all of that. .

I am baring my soul to you right now.  I got screwed on my last job, and this doesn’t help the reference section on my current resume’.  I don’t know what I’m going to do if things don’t come together for me soon.  I’m getting a bit used to not working, and that’s not good, but eventually unemployment money runs out, and then what?  I need to think positive and do things that will bring me up.  I’m trying, but it’s not easy.

Then there is this little factor going on that I have not been on some needed medications for a while now.  This is due to a disruption in my insurance.  It’s not helping me do well at interviews or anywhere else to be without this needed medication.  I have health insurance now, thanks to Obama, but it’s just now coming into effect and the pharmacy is out of what I need.  Today was quite a cluster fuck for me.  I damaged my truck which pissed me the fuck off.  It’s the side panel and I hit into a metal post and scraped it.  Jeezus….  Then the pharmacy doesn’t have my pills, and I’m unsure what to do about that.  I guess try more pharmacies.  I need those pills.

Well that’s all for now.  Take it easy.  Any opinions or views on any of this would be appreciated.  There seems to be something wrong with my comments, so I’ll see if I can look into that right away.  We’ll see I guess.


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